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[This is odd, because she's never really told Emma that she's a werewolf... but she's certain that she knows. At least, it feels like she knows. Just because of who she hangs out with. She moves to start to reply in text, but she realizes that it's just going to be easier for her to say it.]

He's from the same world as me and he's part of the reason why when I first showed up Tyler warned everyone that he was friends with to stay away from me. Back home I betrayed Tyler and turned over his pack to Klaus. There were circumstances, none that are forgivable, but there had been reasons why I thought I was doing the only thing I could do. Back home I lost any friends I even thought I had and when someone wanted me dead, I didn't exactly have anyone to call for help - except Klaus, because in a twisted way he owed me.

I was in Klaus' house before I arrived. I did what I do best; I exchanged information about someone for something that benefited me. I got protection he got the location of Katherine Pierce. We had been in an interesting conversation moments before I first showed up here. [The tone placed onto "interesting" would imply the sort of closeness that could cause pregnancy.]

Then this ship happened and I created a new life. I know my mistakes were difficult to understand and while I've been here I've tried to make up for them. Tyler and I were closer before he went home. [She pauses.] Not friends again, but he did trust me at least. I spent most of the time I spent here explaining and apologizing for what I did.

Part of that was reassuring people that if Klaus did show up here, that I wouldn't want anything to do with him. The association alone had been difficult, but I did what I could to move beyond it.

Except, going back home I don't get any of those luxuries. I don't get to remember the friendships I worked for or the people I cared about. I get to go right back into a situation that leads to me getting pregnant - and the father would be the same person I convinced people here that I wouldn't have anything to do with.

[She lets out a soft sound of hollow amusement.] I didn't want to lie about it. I figured if he showed up, or if anyone else that knew showed up it would have been worse for him to find out from them. So I told the guy that I had been involved with here. I thought that he'd understand, but he definitely did not.

He ended things pretty much the day of the jump.

Which is a really long story to a question that you might not have been really asking.

[ It's a lot at once. Emma blinks on the other end of the line, taking a deep breath and letting silence hang between them while she processes.

Having just gone home herself, she can imagine what it's like. Remember firsthand how she hadn't recalled a single moment of the Tranquility. Her luck (as much as it can be called that) was knowing that the only person she'd so much as kissed in either world was the same person, and anything messy about it was her own doing.

Not true for Hayley. ]

What's his name? Not Klaus. The guy who bailed on you.

[ Because, yeah. That's how it sounds to Emma. She isn't giving Isaac any quarter on this one. She's been ditched pregnant before, and there's really no excuse for it, even if Isaac wasn't the father. You don't do that to someone you love. ]

Isaac. [Her tone is the sort that comes when you almost make it sound like a question... but it's not really a question. It's her own reality that when you get involved with a teenager, you end up involved with a teenager.]

Well, I don't know if it's occurred to you, so let me lay it out: Isaac's an idiot. You don't get the luxury of having all the information to make your choices back home after you've been here. It doesn't matter what you know or who you care about—all bets are off.

He should have been glad you trusted him enough to tell him at all, not ... Not this.

[Hayley smiles, it's probably something Emma can hear in her tone.]

Thanks, Emma. I know he's just being stubborn and that it hurt him to find out, but it doesn't change how difficult it is to have him just shut me out every time I try to reach out.

[She exhales and take a breath to set her resolve to.] I'll be fine; I mean, I do have more important people to care about.

Like yourself, for instance?

[ Given that her self is now two people. ]

That would be the main concern. Well, it's more the concern for the baby and then for myself.

Lucky kid.

We'll see how lucky she is when she's born on a ship, flying to who knows where.

At least she won't be on it alone.

[Hayley is quiet for a moment, because that's another concern she has about having a child here in space... because what if she does leave and her baby doesn't come with? People go missing here all the time and unless she's going to be holding onto her for the rest of her life...]

I'm just hoping that she's going to be safe.

I'm sure it'll be fine. We've got top-of-the-line medical around here.

That's not the part that I'm worried about. [She frowns, trying not to focus on it. It's funny how Emma came to her for advice and now the conversation has shifted completely. Hayley had noticed it at first, but now she's overly focusing on her own issues.]

I'm sure it'll work out, but that doesn't stop me from worrying about it.

So, what part are you worried about?

How am I supposed to prepare an infant for the jump? [The thought horrifies her a bit. The thought that the pods don't even open at the same time and that her daughter could be dumped out onto the floor????]

Medical might have a way to get her in with you. There might be some pods unique for kids. If not ... I don't know. I don't think this ship was intended for families.

I know and it's just something that I've been thinking about more and more...

[She shakes it off.]

Are you going to talk to your guy?

My ... [ waIT WHAT. ] No. No, it's not like—[ Isn't it tho. Isn't it. ] He's not my anything. He's just ... [ Hook. She lets out a gruff sigh. ] Maybe. I don't know.

I meant, in the vague general sense of the word your, since I didn't have a name to call back to.

Just ... clarifying.

[ awkward. ]

It's fine, I know all about having to clarify things.

It's really not like that.

[ Because now it seems like she felt like it was necessary to clarify instead of just misinterpreting and her defensiveness knows no bounds. ]

It's fine - really. I don't need you to keep trying to back out of a corner. There's no corner, I promise. I just... I know complicated. I'm pregnant with the child of a man who doesn't really care about my survival as much as his brother seems to. [a beat] Back home, not here.

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