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Yeah, well, my old standby is to just avoid it and hope it goes away, so you're one up on me.

do you want this to go away, though?

I haven't had a lot of time to think about that.

[ Because in this case, the question really comes down to whether or not she wants Hook to go away. Or at least to stop trying. ]

No.

maybe taking some time might help. you can try to piece things together or you can try to figure out how to ask the right questions.

[Because, even in giving this advice, Hayley's not telling her to just go up and ask them point blank.]

And here I thought 'what the hell are you hiding' would be the way to go.

that would be one approach I've never been good at just asking

Well the nanite situation makes it a little hard to just go through his stuff.

Do you think he'll tell you the truth if you ask him directly?

People usually don't.

maybe this time he'll surprise you

And I'm supposed to just take his word for it? I don't think so.

You can either take his word for it or not, but I think the bigger risk here is not asking at all.

[She thinks about Isaac and how there was nothing she could do about the things that happened back home. That if she had been able to take even a second of her experiences on this ship back with her that things would have been different. That doesn't happen though. There's a divide between here and there and whenever she gets yanked back and forth she ends up scrambling to make up for things that feel like they're out of her hands. She isn't sure if that's how Emma feels, but she knows that she's better off telling Isaac the truth and him hating her than it spiraling out from beneath her.]

sometimes telling the truth is easier than waiting for that person to find the truth on their own.

Sounds like experience. You wanna talk about it?

[She senses a moment of deflection, but she also knows that she doesn't have many people to actually talk to about these things. It's not as if she's ever had anyone to confide in. Rebekah had been the closest thing and that wasn't really the same thing. She can't exactly talk about Rebekah's brothers to Rebekah... at least not in the context she had been looking for. Here it's even more complicated.]

There's nothing left to talk about. I told the truth. He didn't like the truth. He left.

That's my experience with it.

Truth about what?

Me being pregnant. The father of the baby, to be the most specific.

How the hell is that anyone else's business?

It's a complicated subject because of who he is. Did security ever get any warnings about a Niklaus Mikaelson when he was here?

None that I heard about. Why?

[This is odd, because she's never really told Emma that she's a werewolf... but she's certain that she knows. At least, it feels like she knows. Just because of who she hangs out with. She moves to start to reply in text, but she realizes that it's just going to be easier for her to say it.]

He's from the same world as me and he's part of the reason why when I first showed up Tyler warned everyone that he was friends with to stay away from me. Back home I betrayed Tyler and turned over his pack to Klaus. There were circumstances, none that are forgivable, but there had been reasons why I thought I was doing the only thing I could do. Back home I lost any friends I even thought I had and when someone wanted me dead, I didn't exactly have anyone to call for help - except Klaus, because in a twisted way he owed me.

I was in Klaus' house before I arrived. I did what I do best; I exchanged information about someone for something that benefited me. I got protection he got the location of Katherine Pierce. We had been in an interesting conversation moments before I first showed up here. [The tone placed onto "interesting" would imply the sort of closeness that could cause pregnancy.]

Then this ship happened and I created a new life. I know my mistakes were difficult to understand and while I've been here I've tried to make up for them. Tyler and I were closer before he went home. [She pauses.] Not friends again, but he did trust me at least. I spent most of the time I spent here explaining and apologizing for what I did.

Part of that was reassuring people that if Klaus did show up here, that I wouldn't want anything to do with him. The association alone had been difficult, but I did what I could to move beyond it.

Except, going back home I don't get any of those luxuries. I don't get to remember the friendships I worked for or the people I cared about. I get to go right back into a situation that leads to me getting pregnant - and the father would be the same person I convinced people here that I wouldn't have anything to do with.

[She lets out a soft sound of hollow amusement.] I didn't want to lie about it. I figured if he showed up, or if anyone else that knew showed up it would have been worse for him to find out from them. So I told the guy that I had been involved with here. I thought that he'd understand, but he definitely did not.

He ended things pretty much the day of the jump.

Which is a really long story to a question that you might not have been really asking.

[ It's a lot at once. Emma blinks on the other end of the line, taking a deep breath and letting silence hang between them while she processes.

Having just gone home herself, she can imagine what it's like. Remember firsthand how she hadn't recalled a single moment of the Tranquility. Her luck (as much as it can be called that) was knowing that the only person she'd so much as kissed in either world was the same person, and anything messy about it was her own doing.

Not true for Hayley. ]

What's his name? Not Klaus. The guy who bailed on you.

[ Because, yeah. That's how it sounds to Emma. She isn't giving Isaac any quarter on this one. She's been ditched pregnant before, and there's really no excuse for it, even if Isaac wasn't the father. You don't do that to someone you love. ]

Isaac. [Her tone is the sort that comes when you almost make it sound like a question... but it's not really a question. It's her own reality that when you get involved with a teenager, you end up involved with a teenager.]

Well, I don't know if it's occurred to you, so let me lay it out: Isaac's an idiot. You don't get the luxury of having all the information to make your choices back home after you've been here. It doesn't matter what you know or who you care about—all bets are off.

He should have been glad you trusted him enough to tell him at all, not ... Not this.

[Hayley smiles, it's probably something Emma can hear in her tone.]

Thanks, Emma. I know he's just being stubborn and that it hurt him to find out, but it doesn't change how difficult it is to have him just shut me out every time I try to reach out.

[She exhales and take a breath to set her resolve to.] I'll be fine; I mean, I do have more important people to care about.

Like yourself, for instance?

[ Given that her self is now two people. ]

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