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he skirted around the obvious answer. I think no one wants to hear that in their future they're pregnant, but other than hearing that I was living in new orleans with his family, I didn't really have much to go on.

when I came back and I knew, he was already gone.

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Sorry.

I know the reminder probably sucks; I didn't mean to drag anything up.

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you didn't know and I'm pretty sure that you didn't bring it up as small talk.

what's going on that has you thinking this way?

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Someone from home's ahead of me now. It was the other way around before, but we both took a side-trip last jump.

It feels like we're on different pages.

Obviously. We are on different pages. But it's hard to get an idea of where we stand. I think he's hiding something.

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do you know how far apart you are? I mean, is this something that can be pieced together without actually asking a direct question?

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A year. That much, he fessed up to.

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a year can feel a lot longer than it is, too.

you have an advantage that at least you are from the same world. coming back with time spent back home isn't always easy for the ones that don't really understand what goes on back home.

do you want to go back to the way it was before or try to find a new way to be with the new things that you've experienced?

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[ that somehow manages to voice the real question here. not just with hook, but in general. emma's in a transition, in some ways. trying to figure out how to handle all the changes in her life. does she hold onto her old pain and the closed-off self-interest that has worked so well for her up to this point? or does she try to fight her instincts and fight to find a way to let it go and let in the people that love her? it feels impossible. ]

I don't know what I want.

The truth, mostly.

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the truth isn't always easy to hear or to say.

if it was the other way around, would you tell them?

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Depends on what it is.

That's what's making me nervous.

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do you want to talk it out? I can meet you somewhere. I have alcohol that I can't drink, too, if you need a drink.

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Not really my thing.

I was just hoping you'd have a tried and true method to drag it out of him.

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[Hayley laughs. She hasn't had much luck with things going well with relationships and the truth. Isaac bailed, but he's still young and trying to deal with a lot of his own issues. She can't really fault him for panicking.]

my methods of communication when it comes to getting secrets out of people isn't the best way. it usually involves me doing something rash and impulsive and then dealing with the fall out.

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Yeah, well, my old standby is to just avoid it and hope it goes away, so you're one up on me.

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do you want this to go away, though?

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I haven't had a lot of time to think about that.

[ Because in this case, the question really comes down to whether or not she wants Hook to go away. Or at least to stop trying. ]

No.

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maybe taking some time might help. you can try to piece things together or you can try to figure out how to ask the right questions.

[Because, even in giving this advice, Hayley's not telling her to just go up and ask them point blank.]

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And here I thought 'what the hell are you hiding' would be the way to go.

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that would be one approach I've never been good at just asking

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Well the nanite situation makes it a little hard to just go through his stuff.

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Do you think he'll tell you the truth if you ask him directly?

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People usually don't.

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maybe this time he'll surprise you

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And I'm supposed to just take his word for it? I don't think so.

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You can either take his word for it or not, but I think the bigger risk here is not asking at all.

[She thinks about Isaac and how there was nothing she could do about the things that happened back home. That if she had been able to take even a second of her experiences on this ship back with her that things would have been different. That doesn't happen though. There's a divide between here and there and whenever she gets yanked back and forth she ends up scrambling to make up for things that feel like they're out of her hands. She isn't sure if that's how Emma feels, but she knows that she's better off telling Isaac the truth and him hating her than it spiraling out from beneath her.]

sometimes telling the truth is easier than waiting for that person to find the truth on their own.